Healing Soul-utions operates on the premise that all healing is self-healing. We believe we must open our hearts to ourselves via permission to love 'self', the forgiveness of self or others, or by various means in order to facilitate healing conditions. That we, as human beings, have bodies that try to communicate our emotional, mental, and spiritual discomforts to us via "body language." Healing Soul-utions also maintains that we must treat emotional, mental or spiritual causes rather than address only the symptoms, or our bodies will continue to communicate to us the discomfort or dis-ease that remains present in our energy bodies (aura), and symptoms will return.
Energy work, in no way replaces professional medical care. However no care system can help you if you do not, on some level of your being, desire to be helped. For example a person, who believes themselves guilty, bad, or faulty in some way and/or not deserving of healing, usually stays sick. Rather we would like to assist and support your present care with avenues not open to, nor acknowledged or supported by most American health care professionals – that of integrating our Spiritual Selves and energy fields, into the treatment plan. Please note that healing may occur only one, two, or all levels of being, perhaps only spiritual or emotional. Regardless, if our consciousness level is increased, healing has taken place.
Monday, June 25, 2007
Alkaline & Acid Foods List
This list can get you started. I got it off a web site so I can't take the credit but if you are struggling to recover avoid the acid foods whenever possible. You can add back your favorites after you are better--in moderation of course.
Alkaline Foods (60-80% of your diet depending on your health)
ALKALIZING ORIENTAL VEGETABLES
Daikon, Dandelion Root, Kombu, Maitake, Nori Reishi, Shitake, Umeboshi, Wakame
ALKALIZING FRUITS
Apple, Apricot, Avocado, Banana (high glycemic), Berries, Blackberries, Cantaloupe,
Cherries sour, Coconut fresh, Currants, Dates dried, Figs dried, Grapes, Grapefruit, Honeydew Melon, Lemon, Lime, Muskmelons, Nectarine, Orange, Peach, Pear, Pineapple, Raisins, Raspberries, Rhubarb, Strawberries, Tangerine, Tomato, Tropical Fruits, Umeboshi Plums, Watermelon
ALKALIZING PROTEIN
Almonds, Chestnuts, Millet, Tempeh (fermented), Tofu (fermented), Whey Protein Powder
ALKALIZING SWEETENERS
Stevia
ALKALIZING SPICES & SEASONINGS
Chili Pepper, Cinnamon, Curry, Ginger, Herbs (all), Miso, Mustard, Sea Salt, Tamari
ALKALIZING OTHER
Alkaline Antioxidant Water, Apple Cider Vinegar, Bee Pollen, Fresh Fruit Juice, Green Juices, Lecithin Granules, Mineral Water, Molasses blackstrap, Probiotic Cultures, Soured Dairy Products, Veggie Juices
ALKALIZING MINERALS
Calcium: pH 12 Cesium: pH 14 Magnesium: pH 9 Potassium: pH 14 Sodium: pH 14
Although it might seem that citrus fruits would have an acidifying effect on the body, the citric acid they contain actually has an alkalinizing effect in the system. Note that a food's acid or alkaline forming tendency in the body has nothing to do with the actual pH of the food itself. For example, lemons are very acidic, however the end products they produce after digestion and assimilation are very alkaline so, lemons are alkaline forming in the body. Likewise, meat will test alkaline before digestion, but it leaves very acidic residue in the body so, like nearly all animal products, meat is very acid forming.
LIMIT ACIDIFYING FOODS (only about 1/3 your diet)
ACIDIFYING BEANS & LEGUMES
Almond, Milk, Black Beans, Chick Peas, Green Peas, Kidney Beans, Lentils, Pinto Beans, Red Beans, Rice Milk, Soy Beans, Soy Milk, White Beans
ACIDIFYING DAIRY
Butter, Cheese, Cheese Processed, Ice Cream, Ice Milk
ACIDIFYING NUTS & BUTTERS
Cashews, Legumes, Peanut Butter, Peanuts, Pecans, Tahini, Walnuts
ACIDIFYING ANIMAL PROTEIN
Bacon, Beef, Carp, Clams, Cod, Corned Beef, Fish, Haddock, Lamb, Lobster, Mussels, Organ Meats, Oyster, Pike, Pork, Rabbit, Salmon, Sardines, Sausage, Scallops, Shellfish, Shrimp, Tuna, Turkey, Veal, Venison
ACIDIFYING FATS & OILS
Avacado Oil, Butter, Canola Oil, Corn Oil, Flax Oil, Hemp Seed Oil, Lard, Olive Oil, Safflower Oil, Sesame Oil, Sunflower Oil
ACIDIFYING SWEETENERS
Carob, Corn Syrup, Sugar
ACIDIFYING ALCOHOL
Beer, Hard Liquor, Spirits, Wine
ACIDIFYING OTHER FOODS
Catsup, Cocoa, Coffee, Mustard, Pepper, Soft Drinks, Vinegar
ACIDIFYING DRUGS & CHEMICALS
Aspirin, Chemicals, Drugs, Medicinal Drugs, Psychedelic Herbicides, Pesticides, Tobacco
ACIDIFYING JUNK FOOD
Beer: pH 2.5 Coca-Cola: pH 2 Coffee: pH 4
Alkaline Foods (60-80% of your diet depending on your health)
ALKALIZING ORIENTAL VEGETABLES
Daikon, Dandelion Root, Kombu, Maitake, Nori Reishi, Shitake, Umeboshi, Wakame
ALKALIZING FRUITS
Apple, Apricot, Avocado, Banana (high glycemic), Berries, Blackberries, Cantaloupe,
Cherries sour, Coconut fresh, Currants, Dates dried, Figs dried, Grapes, Grapefruit, Honeydew Melon, Lemon, Lime, Muskmelons, Nectarine, Orange, Peach, Pear, Pineapple, Raisins, Raspberries, Rhubarb, Strawberries, Tangerine, Tomato, Tropical Fruits, Umeboshi Plums, Watermelon
ALKALIZING PROTEIN
Almonds, Chestnuts, Millet, Tempeh (fermented), Tofu (fermented), Whey Protein Powder
ALKALIZING SWEETENERS
Stevia
ALKALIZING SPICES & SEASONINGS
Chili Pepper, Cinnamon, Curry, Ginger, Herbs (all), Miso, Mustard, Sea Salt, Tamari
ALKALIZING OTHER
Alkaline Antioxidant Water, Apple Cider Vinegar, Bee Pollen, Fresh Fruit Juice, Green Juices, Lecithin Granules, Mineral Water, Molasses blackstrap, Probiotic Cultures, Soured Dairy Products, Veggie Juices
ALKALIZING MINERALS
Calcium: pH 12 Cesium: pH 14 Magnesium: pH 9 Potassium: pH 14 Sodium: pH 14
Although it might seem that citrus fruits would have an acidifying effect on the body, the citric acid they contain actually has an alkalinizing effect in the system. Note that a food's acid or alkaline forming tendency in the body has nothing to do with the actual pH of the food itself. For example, lemons are very acidic, however the end products they produce after digestion and assimilation are very alkaline so, lemons are alkaline forming in the body. Likewise, meat will test alkaline before digestion, but it leaves very acidic residue in the body so, like nearly all animal products, meat is very acid forming.
LIMIT ACIDIFYING FOODS (only about 1/3 your diet)
ACIDIFYING BEANS & LEGUMES
Almond, Milk, Black Beans, Chick Peas, Green Peas, Kidney Beans, Lentils, Pinto Beans, Red Beans, Rice Milk, Soy Beans, Soy Milk, White Beans
ACIDIFYING DAIRY
Butter, Cheese, Cheese Processed, Ice Cream, Ice Milk
ACIDIFYING NUTS & BUTTERS
Cashews, Legumes, Peanut Butter, Peanuts, Pecans, Tahini, Walnuts
ACIDIFYING ANIMAL PROTEIN
Bacon, Beef, Carp, Clams, Cod, Corned Beef, Fish, Haddock, Lamb, Lobster, Mussels, Organ Meats, Oyster, Pike, Pork, Rabbit, Salmon, Sardines, Sausage, Scallops, Shellfish, Shrimp, Tuna, Turkey, Veal, Venison
ACIDIFYING FATS & OILS
Avacado Oil, Butter, Canola Oil, Corn Oil, Flax Oil, Hemp Seed Oil, Lard, Olive Oil, Safflower Oil, Sesame Oil, Sunflower Oil
ACIDIFYING SWEETENERS
Carob, Corn Syrup, Sugar
ACIDIFYING ALCOHOL
Beer, Hard Liquor, Spirits, Wine
ACIDIFYING OTHER FOODS
Catsup, Cocoa, Coffee, Mustard, Pepper, Soft Drinks, Vinegar
ACIDIFYING DRUGS & CHEMICALS
Aspirin, Chemicals, Drugs, Medicinal Drugs, Psychedelic Herbicides, Pesticides, Tobacco
ACIDIFYING JUNK FOOD
Beer: pH 2.5 Coca-Cola: pH 2 Coffee: pH 4
How I Beat Stage 3 Breast Cancer in Two Months
I used A LOT of different healing methods and in no way can I say this one worked or that one worked. I do however feel that used in conjunction they all contributed to my miraculous cure.
The most important thing I did was to examine myself, one of those fearless and searching moral inventories. Only now I must continue to do them periodically. Louise Hay attributes a mental pattern to every disease. Alice Bailey (Theosophy Publishing) also wrote a book “Esoteric Healing” concerning this same principles. In 20 years experience I have not found these principles to be wrong, and I’ve checked them out. I observed them with all my friends and family and their friends as well.
I worked on my issues. In addition to holding onto some relationship hurts, shocks, old pain and what I considered horrible injustice, I was obsessing about my three-year old granddaughter and her welfare. Daily I agonized over the outcome of that divorce and custody—against all my beliefs about trusting in Divine right order. I grew myself a big lump of tumor over it and all the other things I had never quite gotten over like past betrayals, lies, and abandonment. The nice thing is since my diagnosis I am on good terms with my granddaughter's mom and she is growing up and being responsible now. In fact I’m on better terms with all my old relationships save one. I want to mention that I used Caroline Myss’s material on Chakras to do my issues work, mostly heart chakra work for breast cancer. A word of caution, you cannot have epiphanies, new insights and new perspectives and then go back to the old way of doing things after you are well again. It doesn’t work that way. I'd had all those healing insights and still got/created cancer. I had to put up or shut up.
The second most important thing I did was EFT, Emotional Freedom Technique. This is free and it is on-line, available to everyone at http://www.Emofree.com. This site offers CDs for very little investment (about $15 for 3 CDs) if you want to see the demonstrations and tap along watching your PC monitor. I put a lot of stock in this healing method. Why on earth did I ever get sick having all the tools I do? The answer is simple. I didn’t always use them. I’m a Reiki master as well and usually fail to give myself the energy.
The other methods I used are below and I have no way of knowing if they need to be used together or what percentage of healing could be attributed to what method, if at all—except laughter. With no intention of minimizing any method’s importance I will list them and give brief information. As with any product, method or theory, use you own discretion as to what you are comfortable doing or using. You have the option to believe nothing unless it resonates with you.
Alkaline diet versus acidic diet, “cancer can’t live in alkaline environment”. You can find this information on-line. This is free information. I also read a study that cancer actually feeds off nicotine. Smokers quit while you can. I had no alcohol and don’t recommend it (its acidic).
Surprisingly, lemon, orange, mandarins, lime and grapefruit are not acidic in the system but become alkaline. Boost your immune system. See information at
http://altmedicine.about.com/od/popularhealthdiets/a/alkalinediet.htm
Waioras’s NCD Zeolite- natural cellular defense formula, detox and alkalize, boosts immune system. They make no claims on this product concerning cancer but results are amazing. There is a cost but I used only one bottle during this time and it was a gift.
Releases: verbal affirmation of letting go of some hurt, fear or resentment—getting it out of the body and releasing it. Try to feel it as you let it go. This is an emotional exercise, not intellectual. My thought is--old hurts and injustices are like cobras. If you don't let them go they will kill you.
Quantum Energetics – QE, a hands-on method of working with the body’s electrical systems. Very complex to learn and not well known but it is effective and simple to receive. I have had immediate results with shoulder and hip problems. Works with all kinds of physical problems including constipation. Look up Quantum Energetic Healing on-line.
Reiki—ancient origins but rediscovered by Dr. Usui in Japan. There is a universal divine healing energy available to everyone. Some people access this through prayer but there are different kinds of prayer. When using Reiki to access this energy symbols are used. Those symbols are related to an energy language and each symbol represents an entire concept. A Reiki practitioner directs this energy. It is very closely related to Healing Touch, which is accepted in many hospitals.
Bach Flower Remedies—You may use the actual remedies. I could not afford them so I used the power of the mind to heal using the remedies (psychic dosing). Not for everyone—I believe in intention and the power of the mind and the will. Psychic dosing is done with the mind with a real product in mind but not any physical product in my possession. Just say, “I now ask for the perfect dose of...(whatever flower essence).” Read up on them to know which ones to use.
Immunics—This is another method free to everyone on-line. Check out the website at http://www.immunics.org/index.html watch the videos for instruction. I used this but not regularly, simply because I was doing so many methods. There are donations for CDs etc. Note the Cancer page in the left column.
Laughter therapy releases endorphins, raises frequency of the body and it feels good.
Supplements/Antioxidants that were doctor approved – meaning she had no objection. Though she did not see they had curative value she allowed them. R-Lipoic acid (stronger than Alpha Lipoic) Calcium, Magnesium, Potassium (be careful, you can overdose on this), DMAE, Vitamin E, daily liquid vitamin. I do not suggest others do exactly as did but use their own judgment as to what is best for them or check with their own doctor. I started taking N-Acetyl Cysteine (NAC) and Selenium after chemo because I did not find out about them before then. I suggested both to my friend during her chemo. For more information: I will list my dosages in another posting. Again I am not perscribing any of htese methods. I am saying this is what I did.
Ho'oponopono – A method from the ancient Kahunas (healer-priests) of Hawai'i. Here’s the site directly addressing cancer. http://www.cancerlynx.com/huna.html#guilt
I found this site in October, after my experience but you may check out the various ways to fight cancer at
http://www.cancerfightingstrategies.com/?engine=adwords!800&keyword=%2Acancer%2A&match_type=
I had a really hard time with the last chemo session and since the MRI said I was clear my doctor said to recover from the chemo and prepare for the surgery. However she also said I may need to finish the last two sessions depending on surgery results. By August it was time for the lumpectomy, only there was no lump anymore. My surgeon called me personally with the results after surgery and reported there was no cancer, and no trace of any cancer. The breast tissue samples and the two lymph nodes he removed had no sign of any cancer what so ever. It was just gone. On my post-op visit he walked into the room and hugged me and said he was very impressed. He was genuinely very happy for me and I feel he was just a bit proud of me as well.
This month, June 0f 2007, is my first anniversay of completing chemo. Having just had my mammogram and office exam I can report I'm still free and clear.
The most important thing I did was to examine myself, one of those fearless and searching moral inventories. Only now I must continue to do them periodically. Louise Hay attributes a mental pattern to every disease. Alice Bailey (Theosophy Publishing) also wrote a book “Esoteric Healing” concerning this same principles. In 20 years experience I have not found these principles to be wrong, and I’ve checked them out. I observed them with all my friends and family and their friends as well.
I worked on my issues. In addition to holding onto some relationship hurts, shocks, old pain and what I considered horrible injustice, I was obsessing about my three-year old granddaughter and her welfare. Daily I agonized over the outcome of that divorce and custody—against all my beliefs about trusting in Divine right order. I grew myself a big lump of tumor over it and all the other things I had never quite gotten over like past betrayals, lies, and abandonment. The nice thing is since my diagnosis I am on good terms with my granddaughter's mom and she is growing up and being responsible now. In fact I’m on better terms with all my old relationships save one. I want to mention that I used Caroline Myss’s material on Chakras to do my issues work, mostly heart chakra work for breast cancer. A word of caution, you cannot have epiphanies, new insights and new perspectives and then go back to the old way of doing things after you are well again. It doesn’t work that way. I'd had all those healing insights and still got/created cancer. I had to put up or shut up.
The second most important thing I did was EFT, Emotional Freedom Technique. This is free and it is on-line, available to everyone at http://www.Emofree.com. This site offers CDs for very little investment (about $15 for 3 CDs) if you want to see the demonstrations and tap along watching your PC monitor. I put a lot of stock in this healing method. Why on earth did I ever get sick having all the tools I do? The answer is simple. I didn’t always use them. I’m a Reiki master as well and usually fail to give myself the energy.
The other methods I used are below and I have no way of knowing if they need to be used together or what percentage of healing could be attributed to what method, if at all—except laughter. With no intention of minimizing any method’s importance I will list them and give brief information. As with any product, method or theory, use you own discretion as to what you are comfortable doing or using. You have the option to believe nothing unless it resonates with you.
Alkaline diet versus acidic diet, “cancer can’t live in alkaline environment”. You can find this information on-line. This is free information. I also read a study that cancer actually feeds off nicotine. Smokers quit while you can. I had no alcohol and don’t recommend it (its acidic).
Surprisingly, lemon, orange, mandarins, lime and grapefruit are not acidic in the system but become alkaline. Boost your immune system. See information at
http://altmedicine.about.com/od/popularhealthdiets/a/alkalinediet.htm
Waioras’s NCD Zeolite- natural cellular defense formula, detox and alkalize, boosts immune system. They make no claims on this product concerning cancer but results are amazing. There is a cost but I used only one bottle during this time and it was a gift.
Releases: verbal affirmation of letting go of some hurt, fear or resentment—getting it out of the body and releasing it. Try to feel it as you let it go. This is an emotional exercise, not intellectual. My thought is--old hurts and injustices are like cobras. If you don't let them go they will kill you.
Quantum Energetics – QE, a hands-on method of working with the body’s electrical systems. Very complex to learn and not well known but it is effective and simple to receive. I have had immediate results with shoulder and hip problems. Works with all kinds of physical problems including constipation. Look up Quantum Energetic Healing on-line.
Reiki—ancient origins but rediscovered by Dr. Usui in Japan. There is a universal divine healing energy available to everyone. Some people access this through prayer but there are different kinds of prayer. When using Reiki to access this energy symbols are used. Those symbols are related to an energy language and each symbol represents an entire concept. A Reiki practitioner directs this energy. It is very closely related to Healing Touch, which is accepted in many hospitals.
Bach Flower Remedies—You may use the actual remedies. I could not afford them so I used the power of the mind to heal using the remedies (psychic dosing). Not for everyone—I believe in intention and the power of the mind and the will. Psychic dosing is done with the mind with a real product in mind but not any physical product in my possession. Just say, “I now ask for the perfect dose of...(whatever flower essence).” Read up on them to know which ones to use.
Immunics—This is another method free to everyone on-line. Check out the website at http://www.immunics.org/index.html watch the videos for instruction. I used this but not regularly, simply because I was doing so many methods. There are donations for CDs etc. Note the Cancer page in the left column.
Laughter therapy releases endorphins, raises frequency of the body and it feels good.
Supplements/Antioxidants that were doctor approved – meaning she had no objection. Though she did not see they had curative value she allowed them. R-Lipoic acid (stronger than Alpha Lipoic) Calcium, Magnesium, Potassium (be careful, you can overdose on this), DMAE, Vitamin E, daily liquid vitamin. I do not suggest others do exactly as did but use their own judgment as to what is best for them or check with their own doctor. I started taking N-Acetyl Cysteine (NAC) and Selenium after chemo because I did not find out about them before then. I suggested both to my friend during her chemo. For more information: I will list my dosages in another posting. Again I am not perscribing any of htese methods. I am saying this is what I did.
Ho'oponopono – A method from the ancient Kahunas (healer-priests) of Hawai'i. Here’s the site directly addressing cancer. http://www.cancerlynx.com/huna.html#guilt
I found this site in October, after my experience but you may check out the various ways to fight cancer at
http://www.cancerfightingstrategies.com/?engine=adwords!800&keyword=%2Acancer%2A&match_type=
I had a really hard time with the last chemo session and since the MRI said I was clear my doctor said to recover from the chemo and prepare for the surgery. However she also said I may need to finish the last two sessions depending on surgery results. By August it was time for the lumpectomy, only there was no lump anymore. My surgeon called me personally with the results after surgery and reported there was no cancer, and no trace of any cancer. The breast tissue samples and the two lymph nodes he removed had no sign of any cancer what so ever. It was just gone. On my post-op visit he walked into the room and hugged me and said he was very impressed. He was genuinely very happy for me and I feel he was just a bit proud of me as well.
This month, June 0f 2007, is my first anniversay of completing chemo. Having just had my mammogram and office exam I can report I'm still free and clear.
My Cancer Story - The Background
Is there a cure for cancer? There was a cure for me. I’ll be very honest and forthright. What I did worked for me. I have the medical records as proof that in March of 2006 I had an aggressive advanced breast cancer and two months later it was gone. My only surgery was a lumpectomy and removal of two lymph nodes in August 2006 and only for the purpose of being sure the cancer was gone.
Doctors had seen me twice since my last child, a daughter born in 1982. For over fifteen years I just didn’t get sick. If I felt something coming on I checked my Louise Hay book “You Can Heal Your Life”, and worked on the personal issue connected to that ailment. Sometimes that’s all it took, other times I went with herbals and supplements to speed the process. I am one of those people who feel “Physician, heal thyself” is only logical. I was also one of those people who said I would never get cancer. I wasn’t the type to let something eat away at me.
My 80 year-old mother was living with me and had broken her hip. It was stressful; she didn’t want to exercise and never regained full mobility, which means I had to do more for her. With the exception of only two months, every single month from the time she was released from rehab (Feb 04) I had a cold that lasted ten to fourteen days. By January 2006, after two years of this my immunity was all but non-existent. It is possible for stress to kill you. The past November (‘05) I had found a lump in the right breast. Well, I’d had a lump before. The practitioner at Planned Parenthood found it in a routine exam in the ‘80s. I went home did my “issues” work and saw a doctor nearly a year later to verify it was gone. I never knew what kind of lump it was. This doctor was one of the two visits to see a physician in about twenty years. The other visit, by the way, was to check my ankle for arthritis, didn’t have it.
In late December the lump started feeling tender and inflamed. I was starting to get a bit worried. There was a red patch on the skin over the lump. In early January of 2006 after telling my oldest son about it I decided, at my oldest son’s pleading, to get checked out. My son is an x-ray tech. I contacted Every Woman Matters, an organization that helps women get mammograms, and began the paperwork process. I had no health insurance, didn’t have a job with benefits, and didn’t really have any job. I do wedding ceremonies and had to rely on referrals. Some months I have no weddings at all, some months only one or two ceremonies.
Every Woman Matters did help, and eventually I qualified for Medicaid. They got me into Contemporary Health Care for Women, a local clinic. I got the routine exam and screenings in February, and was told that I did have a sizeable lump that would have to be further investigated. Every Woman Matters set me up for an MRI and a CT scan. After those images were studied I had an ultra sound to determine if the lump was fibrous or solid. It was solid, not good news. I knew at that moment it was cancer. Sometimes you just know something at the core of your being. I was referred to a surgeon, who did a biopsy during the first office visit on March 3rd. The results were what I already knew, cancer. Invasive Ductal Carcinoma to be exact. I told him I would be actively participating in my healing. He replied I needed to choose an oncologist. I chose the office where my youngest son had gotten care a few years before when he had testicular cancer. He recovered completely and has never had a recurrence. I chose a new doctor though. I went with a woman physician, one from India. Since I am into holistic health care and natural remedies I believed that an Indian doctor would treat me the person, not just my cancer. I was surprised she didn’t know who Deepak Chopra was.
Dr. Midathada is a young woman and was very open to my supplements and whatever else I was doing as long as I kept her informed about what I was taking. At our first meeting I assured her I would take responsibility for my part of the healing process. I don’t think she was used to hearing that. I don’t feel like I sold out my beliefs, I feel like I took advantage of every resource available. Originally I was to be scheduled for eight chemo sessions over 16 weeks, rest and heal, then have a lumpectomy. Six weeks of radiation, five days a week to prevent recurrence would follow post-surgical recovery. I completed six of the chemo sessions, four before and two after the MRI in May. One more thing before I tell you how I was cured. It is important and I feel it is necessary.
One morning, I think it was near the time I started my chemotherapy I had a dream. In my dream I was helping a woman who was about to pass over. I was her coach and I was there for her to encourage her and keep her from becoming afraid, to help her focus. In the dream I was telling her it [dying] was easy. I told her to focus her thoughts on a beautiful place she wanted to go. To imagine there were loving people there to greet her. When she became afraid I told her just to relax into it. I told her death does not hurt, it is not meant to cause fear. I told her it was like passing through a door into another way of being. When I awoke that morning the dream was still very real to me. I realized then I was being given the choice. It would be easy to die. I had a chance to leave if I wanted. For three days that dream stayed with me while I considered my options.
Obviously I made the decision to stay in this life. I love my grandkids and freely admit that I want to imprint them, help guide their little psyches, challenge their minds and teach them, by example, compassion and understanding. I considered how my departure would break my daughter’s heart; she’s my best friend. From that moment I knew I would recover. Within a few weeks my daughter found out she was pregnant again. I had no doubts and when I did share my diagnosis with friends they were a bit surprised by my positive attitude. People offered me books about cancer saying I should have this information. My attitude was “why? It isn’t something I’m keeping”. I stood in my own power and made a decision; rather than invest my time and energy in the disease, I would invest my time and energy into recovery. My surgeon Dr. Tommeraasen said that making a decision was my turning point and that recovery is 90% in the mind. I also got a really neat note from an email friend. Dona said, “Don’t let the ‘C’ word scare you. It’s about like appendicitis.” That helped bolster my already thriving will and determination to beat this. I’d had appendicitis and survived hadn’t I? Using only energy therapy I had seen a fractured bone heal within a week with no evidence it had ever been broken. I’ve seen blood poisoning cured overnight with herbs, before any prescription could have begun to work.
Well, this is the background of my story. Let me post this and I will get on to the "How I did it" portion.
Doctors had seen me twice since my last child, a daughter born in 1982. For over fifteen years I just didn’t get sick. If I felt something coming on I checked my Louise Hay book “You Can Heal Your Life”, and worked on the personal issue connected to that ailment. Sometimes that’s all it took, other times I went with herbals and supplements to speed the process. I am one of those people who feel “Physician, heal thyself” is only logical. I was also one of those people who said I would never get cancer. I wasn’t the type to let something eat away at me.
My 80 year-old mother was living with me and had broken her hip. It was stressful; she didn’t want to exercise and never regained full mobility, which means I had to do more for her. With the exception of only two months, every single month from the time she was released from rehab (Feb 04) I had a cold that lasted ten to fourteen days. By January 2006, after two years of this my immunity was all but non-existent. It is possible for stress to kill you. The past November (‘05) I had found a lump in the right breast. Well, I’d had a lump before. The practitioner at Planned Parenthood found it in a routine exam in the ‘80s. I went home did my “issues” work and saw a doctor nearly a year later to verify it was gone. I never knew what kind of lump it was. This doctor was one of the two visits to see a physician in about twenty years. The other visit, by the way, was to check my ankle for arthritis, didn’t have it.
In late December the lump started feeling tender and inflamed. I was starting to get a bit worried. There was a red patch on the skin over the lump. In early January of 2006 after telling my oldest son about it I decided, at my oldest son’s pleading, to get checked out. My son is an x-ray tech. I contacted Every Woman Matters, an organization that helps women get mammograms, and began the paperwork process. I had no health insurance, didn’t have a job with benefits, and didn’t really have any job. I do wedding ceremonies and had to rely on referrals. Some months I have no weddings at all, some months only one or two ceremonies.
Every Woman Matters did help, and eventually I qualified for Medicaid. They got me into Contemporary Health Care for Women, a local clinic. I got the routine exam and screenings in February, and was told that I did have a sizeable lump that would have to be further investigated. Every Woman Matters set me up for an MRI and a CT scan. After those images were studied I had an ultra sound to determine if the lump was fibrous or solid. It was solid, not good news. I knew at that moment it was cancer. Sometimes you just know something at the core of your being. I was referred to a surgeon, who did a biopsy during the first office visit on March 3rd. The results were what I already knew, cancer. Invasive Ductal Carcinoma to be exact. I told him I would be actively participating in my healing. He replied I needed to choose an oncologist. I chose the office where my youngest son had gotten care a few years before when he had testicular cancer. He recovered completely and has never had a recurrence. I chose a new doctor though. I went with a woman physician, one from India. Since I am into holistic health care and natural remedies I believed that an Indian doctor would treat me the person, not just my cancer. I was surprised she didn’t know who Deepak Chopra was.
Dr. Midathada is a young woman and was very open to my supplements and whatever else I was doing as long as I kept her informed about what I was taking. At our first meeting I assured her I would take responsibility for my part of the healing process. I don’t think she was used to hearing that. I don’t feel like I sold out my beliefs, I feel like I took advantage of every resource available. Originally I was to be scheduled for eight chemo sessions over 16 weeks, rest and heal, then have a lumpectomy. Six weeks of radiation, five days a week to prevent recurrence would follow post-surgical recovery. I completed six of the chemo sessions, four before and two after the MRI in May. One more thing before I tell you how I was cured. It is important and I feel it is necessary.
One morning, I think it was near the time I started my chemotherapy I had a dream. In my dream I was helping a woman who was about to pass over. I was her coach and I was there for her to encourage her and keep her from becoming afraid, to help her focus. In the dream I was telling her it [dying] was easy. I told her to focus her thoughts on a beautiful place she wanted to go. To imagine there were loving people there to greet her. When she became afraid I told her just to relax into it. I told her death does not hurt, it is not meant to cause fear. I told her it was like passing through a door into another way of being. When I awoke that morning the dream was still very real to me. I realized then I was being given the choice. It would be easy to die. I had a chance to leave if I wanted. For three days that dream stayed with me while I considered my options.
Obviously I made the decision to stay in this life. I love my grandkids and freely admit that I want to imprint them, help guide their little psyches, challenge their minds and teach them, by example, compassion and understanding. I considered how my departure would break my daughter’s heart; she’s my best friend. From that moment I knew I would recover. Within a few weeks my daughter found out she was pregnant again. I had no doubts and when I did share my diagnosis with friends they were a bit surprised by my positive attitude. People offered me books about cancer saying I should have this information. My attitude was “why? It isn’t something I’m keeping”. I stood in my own power and made a decision; rather than invest my time and energy in the disease, I would invest my time and energy into recovery. My surgeon Dr. Tommeraasen said that making a decision was my turning point and that recovery is 90% in the mind. I also got a really neat note from an email friend. Dona said, “Don’t let the ‘C’ word scare you. It’s about like appendicitis.” That helped bolster my already thriving will and determination to beat this. I’d had appendicitis and survived hadn’t I? Using only energy therapy I had seen a fractured bone heal within a week with no evidence it had ever been broken. I’ve seen blood poisoning cured overnight with herbs, before any prescription could have begun to work.
Well, this is the background of my story. Let me post this and I will get on to the "How I did it" portion.
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